What are you worried about? I mean what exactly? Make a list; spell it out. Nobody has to see this list. Include not just your worst nightmares but also what you might think of as personal anxiety, such as about how you're perceived by the world. Next, what do you want to experience or create? I don't mean accomplish—I mean dive into for its own sake, to celebrate the beauty of existence? Make a list of those things as well. Question one, which list is longer? Question two, do your fears have any connection at all to why you're hesitating on certain, or all, of your desires? There seems to be some tension between your anxiety and your creativity, though it's not exactly rational. The issue seems to be bound up in your self-image—what will people think of you if they know you did or wanted to do this or that really fun thing? I would go so far as to say that most of your actually debilitating fears are connected to how you think people will perceive you, if they only knew. In my philosophy of art and growth, that's exactly where to pitch your tent—in the spot where you fear others would be most likely to look at you askance. You don't know if they will, and if they do, it's most likely to be because you're the one who will dare. Yet here's a clue: There really isn't a "they." This is all about you.