You may want to put on a logical face and take a reasonable approach, though it seems to be passion that's driving you and direct physical experience that you're seeking. It's as if there is a storm blowing inside of you, and the wind, thunder, and rain want to escape from you any way they can. You don't have to let this out all at once; it would be helpful if you could actually tune into what you're feeling, and consider what some of its possible sources are. Astrologically, here is how it looks: It's as if you've been living a fictional version of your identity, and the real thing is starting to rise up in rebellion against the façade. This involves the roles you've been given, or assigned to yourself, such as with your family and in your relationships. By one reading of the chart, there's a lot to say about the ways in which you've tried to impress your father with what a good person you are. The real you has no such political motives. Your relationships don't need to be based on any kind of a purity standard, but rather on what is mutually good for those involved. If you find yourself seeking someone's approval, that's the time to go to a new level of maturity. You would be wise to consider the influence and impact of your relationships on the community that surrounds you. If you're inclined to say "What relationships?" or "What community?" then please look more closely.